If I pray to myself
Maybe God above will hear me
And if it is in his will
Then he'll send you right back to me
I'll hold my feelings inside so that you won't see me cry
I hope it's all in my mind cause I'm scared.
Dru Hill- All Alone
Its hard for adults to admit when they are wrong especially if we are so passionate with our feelings and within ourselves. 2012 was a huge roller-coaster filled with emotions, tears, smiles, happy moments, depressing moments, revelations and the unfortunate death of loved ones. Through it all life is still moving along like the river of blood flowing through our bodies. Granted everyone celebrates & heals differently. Some will blame others for their actions, use their past and emotions for reasoning behind each event. Myself for example I take time to be angry, I will cry, I will yell, I will distant myself from everyone for a short amount of time & I will try to cope my pain with vices such alcohol, working out, prayer (not a vice) or writing.
Whats crazy about life is EVERYONE has felt the same pain; just in different ways. Everyone has experienced what it feels like to lose someone close to them, what it feels like to be rejected, be heartbroken, what it feels like to be the cause of pain & even being lied to or being the one lying. We are different yet the same in so many ways. So how do we move on without holding on to that burden?
Maybe God above will hear me
And if it is in his will
Then he'll send you right back to me
I'll hold my feelings inside so that you won't see me cry
I hope it's all in my mind cause I'm scared.
Dru Hill- All Alone
Its hard for adults to admit when they are wrong especially if we are so passionate with our feelings and within ourselves. 2012 was a huge roller-coaster filled with emotions, tears, smiles, happy moments, depressing moments, revelations and the unfortunate death of loved ones. Through it all life is still moving along like the river of blood flowing through our bodies. Granted everyone celebrates & heals differently. Some will blame others for their actions, use their past and emotions for reasoning behind each event. Myself for example I take time to be angry, I will cry, I will yell, I will distant myself from everyone for a short amount of time & I will try to cope my pain with vices such alcohol, working out, prayer (not a vice) or writing.
Whats crazy about life is EVERYONE has felt the same pain; just in different ways. Everyone has experienced what it feels like to lose someone close to them, what it feels like to be rejected, be heartbroken, what it feels like to be the cause of pain & even being lied to or being the one lying. We are different yet the same in so many ways. So how do we move on without holding on to that burden?
Gandhi once said "The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong" you can not feel sorry for yourself or others when pain comes into your life. You can definitely feel angry! Let it out! Let it be known that whatever happened to you that you are not happy about it. BUT accept it and move on. One of the loneliest and hurtful things that can happen to a person is being a victim or lies & infidelity. Another is losing someone close to you. Hell another being on top of your game at one moment then hitting rock bottom the next. All of these have happen to me within the past 2 years. Yet here I am bouncing back stronger than ever again.
It takes a strong person to learn from their mistakes and become a even better person after. For example....the storms I have experience last year alone turned out to be one of the greatest experiences of my life. I learned so much about Steven Antwain Barthell; the art of forgiveness being one of them. I started my new company (officially as of 12-27-13) "KONcept Productions" which consist of key note speakers, ghost-writers, catering/workshop services & a team of poets and actors. The co-owners aka my team have a huge family aspect on the company I love it! I released my first short film here is a clip
I released a soundtrack and currently re-vamping my new book. So much more coming in 2013...I am booked for workshops through April....God is awesome! God forgives and so can you.
The easy thing to do is dwell on what happened to you & let that change you in a negative aspect. DONT GO DOWN THAT ROAD! Its pointless and will stunt your growth as a man/woman. The secret is you do not have to put up with the bullshit of your past! If someone made the decision to walk out of your life SEEFUCYALATA! If someone decided to lie to you, cheat on you, abuse you, etc etc SEEFUCYALATA! Its easier said than done but your life will be much easier and better without them. I hate to say this but some people do actually deserve some of the pain they go through. Why? 1. They are probably doing wrong in the first place 2. They decided to put up with the bullshit 3. They are to weak to say fuck you Im out of here
Check out a quick preview to my new website www.stevenabarthell.com not the finished product but I wanted everyone to see something that I am cooking up.
Life is fucking awesome! Dont kiss anybody's ass to feed their egos, live it like its all you have because when its all said and done THATS IT! I lost one of my best friends at the beginning of last year unexpectedly :'-( it still hurts I miss my brother so much but I will not go another year without giving each day/minute/hour/moment every bit of energy that I have! Cut my body fat, lost weight, increased my mental capacity & gained the courage to say I forgive and I will forget it and move on.
This has been a
Steven A Miami KONcept
3s up and 305 down
ATTACK LIFE LIKE ITS AFTER YOUR APPLE JACKS!
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