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My First Time

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us, (Just the two of us)
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

 I have never been so scared in my whole life with what is coming in less than 2 months as of today's date November 11, 2013. I have a son on the way....how does a man respond to this? How do I teach another male how to be man when I didn't have one to teach me? Will I do a good job? How do I handle the pressure? These questions float through my head 24/7 non stop. I just remember God saying "Just trust me!" and that is what I am doing.

 Most know the past few years I have been on a roller coaster dealing with relationships and all of that doesn't matter anymore as of last year December when I linked with someone who was just a friend and it went from hey how you doing to lets link for dinner to omgoodness we have tons in common to hey we're falling for each other to now "hey daddy".
That moment at the Milton hospital changed my life when we learned we were expecting. All of the movies and books are surreal at the moment because going through this pregnancy has been something new and something I never thought would happen because of all of the hit and misses I have had with the women I dated. Some didn't want children or they just weren't what I wanted the mother of my child to be. But we are never in control of that and I understand that fully but God sent the perfect woman to give me my first child Steven Antwain Barthell Jr.



I get emotional thinking of all the things I want to experience with my son from teaching him about sports to video games to love and comedies. I know he will have his own personality but I believe most men want their sons to mirror them in a positive way. I have committed myself to be apart of his life for the rest of my life no matter what! I have fallen in love with his ultrasound pictures and the movements in the womb. He loves music and he also my cooking because that is when he is most active so far. He enjoys the sound of my voice & will only stay still to a certain extent when I talk to him. I can go on forever but I am ready for the challenge and ready for the learning experience of bringing life into this world.

I dedicate my entire soul to raising this child and our daughter with everything I got! 

Thank you for allowing me to share this with you! I can't wait to show this child to the world.....my new best friend and my reason for the grind. 

~Steven

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