The Fish & Grits Diary of a former Bitter Black Man

I look into the mirror and at times I do not know who I am Sometimes I am the voice of the voiceless spreading the gospel of positivity and ways to improve our lives other times I am a raging bull in a house full of glass tearing down the walls that I built I hide the tears of my fears trying to be the leader I was bred to be I am scared, scared of becoming a father, a husband and the head of unknown society of speakers, leaders and individuals taking it to the next level I am afraid of the same failures I tell others not to be terrified of So who am I? Am I the elephant in the room who will sound off vocal pipe bombs? Am I the lion that roars obscene gestures as a defense mechanism to the ppl who love me? Am I the wolf in sheep's clothing hiding from the flock & only appearing when its convenient Who Am I?!?!?!? Someday's I know other days I am lost How can I lead with a limited identity? Who will follow a man with many talents and more mi...

What a difference a year makes! I am a few weeks away from having my son. The initial reaction was "this is going to be my first child" but in reality I have adopted a highly intelligent eight year old daughter who is the center of my universe. She is so amazing and I have never felt love like this before not even from my nieces, nephews or God children who I love with all my heart. Just to see that my teachings, methods and words are effecting her on a daily basis is quite exciting and a little overwhelming at times but overall I feel great about it! I have a woman in my life who is a prayer warrior, a queen and just deeply in love with me for who I am and not what "I can potentially be". My family is all I think about when I make decisions and when I chose certain paths to now follow. My son, daughter and soon to be wife are the reason I wake up and work the overnight shift and then get home to complete administrative work for my publishing company, push my new ...